Almost there!

Nov 2, 2015


     This has taken longer than I hoped it would and lots of hard work but I have lost 35 lbs since Jan 13th. It has not been easy and anyone who has lost weight and kept it off who tells you it is easy is a liar! :P Daily exercise and low carb are how I have managed to do this. And patience, lots and lots of patience. I am sitting here currently at 163 pounds (I had actually gotten down to 160 but have had a bad week this week and ate some things I shouldn't have) 5 pounds from being 40 pounds lighter. I feel great, I look better and I'm in much better physical shape. My current goal is to lose another 20 pounds and then the battle to keep it off will begin. I am going to begin some strength training two days a week. I need to work on my core strength as I can run a few miles but can't do a sit up to save my life! So this is my current goal. I would like to get the remaining 20 lbs off by the one year mark, January 13th. That is 2 months away. I think I can at least get close to it. We shall see.

I wish...

I wish I could sit here and tell you I've lost 10-15 lbs since my last post but I haven't.  This is So depressing. Stuck at 177. I've been working out 5-6 days a week I just don't get it at all. I'm going to keep exercising but the low Carb diet isn't working for some reason. I mean, I've lost 21 lbs. But I've been doing this since January 13. Jamie has lost more than that in a little over a month. 😢 I wish I could lose more. Our trip is 40 days away. 5 weeks. Not slot of time to lose the 20 lbs I wanted to by then. I can't even seem to lose a pound a week let alone 4.

And up again...smh

Back up to 181. So frustrating.  But I think I know what I need to do.  The low carb lifestyle hasn't worked well for me,  well I guess I shouldn't say that, not as well for me as it has for others, but I know that stuff is not good for me.  I Have no plan on going back to eating the things I used to.  At least not until I can find my metabolism which I seem to have lost,  or never really had one to begin with.  This week will be different. Stepping or up again.  Weather is nice now,  may get back to jogging.  I'm cutting back on my portions as well.  I've gotta figure this out.  Only 62 more days till we cruise.

Progress is progress

179.8 I am officially out of the 180s and just 1 lb away from losing 20 lbs! I am so happy. At this rate I should be able to lose another 20 lbs or so before our cruise and THAT would be so awesome. 
     I have to say this. There is no magic pill that is going to make you lose weight and keep it off. Lord knows I have wasted enough money on those miracle pills that do nothing. Dieting is just that, and if you go back to eating and drinking junk you will most likely gain it back.  I have NEVER been able to lose significant weight without exercise. Staying active is key. When all is said and done and I have lost what I am comfortable losing, I will do what I can to stay disciplined, watch my portions, exercise, and I WILL NOT allow myself to lose control again. I never want to feel the way I felt looking in the mirror at 198 lbs again. Ever. I want to feel good, and look good but most importantly I want to be happy in my skin.
     I have learned to push away my plate when I'm full. And trust me this is not an easy thing to do when the food tastes soooo good and you don't want to waste it. I was raised to never waste food and I think that is where my problem began. In fact now I find myself scolding my kids for wasting but thr truth is when you are done you are done and I shouldn't be forcing them to eat the way I was. I guess the better thing to do is teach them not to get more on their plate than they think they can eat. I dont know, anyway the way I look at food has changed a lot. I have mad discipline when it comes to sugar. Something I never thought I could do. The same with Pasta, in fact had to make pasta salad for my son for his birthday (I LOVE pasta salad) But just gotta keep my eyes on the prize. I am in this to win. To be healthy. To feel amazing.

getting there

This has been a slow process. I am however seeing some progress, though slow, so I am ok with it taking time. This morning I weighed in at 181.2 which is 2 lbs down from last week. I worked out every day but one and have been keeping my carbs low. I haven't been counting but as far as I can tell I am only taking in hidden carbs, because I have not touched a piece of  bread, pasta, or rice in over two months. I keep thinking, if I had only done this before I gained again and got up to 198 lbs, I could be 18 lbs lighter than I was then and closer to my goal. I guess I can't think that way though. I try not to focus on the scale, I only weigh in once a week so I don't freak out over it. I just wish my metabolism would kick into gear and help me out a little. Stress probably doesn't help the matter and since I now have 5 children in my house who stress me out on a regular basis lately, it's definitely a factor. On a good note, I am just 2 lbs away from losing 20 lbs and that to me is pretty awesome. I am only 2 lbs away from being out of the 180s and that is pretty awesome too. My goal right now, is to be in the 150s when I go on the cruise in June. So lets say 159 that's 21 lbs more. I think I can do it. I'm hoping (fingers crossed) that my regular workouts will kick my metabolism in and I will lose more but I will be happy with the 21 lbs.

Ugg!!

Oh how I want to scream right now! I have given up EVERYTHING I love to eat. EVERYTHING!! Bread, pasta, sugar and in two months I've only lost 14 pounds. This is beyond frustrating. This is ludacris!! I know it's got to be that I am not doing something right. Not eating enough fat, eating too many calories, too much protein, something. Its driving me nuts. I've been exercising every day with weights and doing dance fitness videos. Going to try to switch up things a little and see what happens. STUCK at 185  grrrr.

Ready or Not

The date is January 13th 2015 and I am 198 pounds. I didn't think I would get back here again.